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There appears to be no curse today...

So how have you spent your hours? How will you spend the hours remaining?

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treadingdawn.livejournal.com

Have you met everyone in your world to know that they know, to know that they believe it?

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had_not_lived

It's not the kind of thing you ever talk about.

...I guess... right now, maybe it's not what everyone believes that worries me. Just if Todd will be angry, if he finds out.

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treadingdawn.livejournal.com

It may be impolite to talk about what we do with those we love intimately, but we should always be proud that we love them at all, whoever they are or what they are.

Do you want him to know?

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had_not_lived

Well, but. He's my friend-- my best friend, here or anywhere, and I'm not at all ashamed to admit that. But it's different, isn't it? It must be, because the curse--

...If I could know for sure that he'd never find out, wouldn't life be a lot easier? I wouldn't have to be afraid of him hating me for it.

But he might already. I should just be glad he hasn't stopped talking to me.

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treadingdawn.livejournal.com

If he is your best friend then wouldn't it be true that of all people he would listen to you unconditionally?

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had_not_lived

But, if someone [ffft forcing himself to say it] loved you and you didn't-- wouldn't it bother you?

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treadingdawn.livejournal.com

[Unfazed Caspian is unfazed.]

It would bother me less than never trying to find out at all only to wonder what might have been when the chance is long passed.

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had_not_lived

[Pause forever, while he thinks about it.]

I know I should really talk to him. [Sigh] I just... have no idea what to say.

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treadingdawn.livejournal.com

I think if you are to be honest and be yourself that is the most anyone should ask for.

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had_not_lived

Christ... I still feel like there's something wrong with me, though.

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treadingdawn.livejournal.com

You would be as wrong as you feel about it, Neil. Billy, Teddy, and Karolina do not seem to share that sentiment.

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had_not_lived

...Right. They... I mean, it's not a big deal, to a lot of people here. And they don't seem like bad people. Billy's the only one I know at all, really, but he seems okay.

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treadingdawn.livejournal.com

I do not think you are a bad person either.

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had_not_lived

I hope I'm not. I've... done bad things. Worse things than falling in love, certainly. But I don't think I'm bad.

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treadingdawn.livejournal.com

If your 'bad' is 'worse' than falling in love of all things then I hesitate to share with you how bad I have been.

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had_not_lived

[With a little laugh] It doesn't even... Do they believe in Hell, where you're from?

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treadingdawn.livejournal.com

I know of it, where cruelty and deceit earns their punishment. A place like that is too beyond anything we can even understand.

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had_not_lived

What I did-- was bad enough that, according to what we believe at home... no second chances, nothing to make up for it, you go to Hell. I'm not sure I believe that anymore, 'cause I'm here. But that's what I was taught.